...Sooometiiimes...

...When I look in your eyes, I can see your soul...

Well, today is the last day of the holiday, WOO...this time it's been great! I think that it helps if you like the work place you are going back to. It's just been a bit of fresh air really, good to have a proper break, and time spent with JAF. It's been swell, light, fluffy, sunny, warming, glowing. There have been days where the smell of the air has just made me smile, others when I've been weepy and tired, and cranky and full of childish frustration where I can't describe the fear and misunderstandings I am feeling. But. Today, though the last, is unburdened, happy, lighter and warm...a bit fuzzy...though there seems to be the signs of bemusement to be closely followed by slight irritation as there is someone patting me on the head, skritching my side, ruffling my hair, bringing me a banarnar right to my nose...(for my breakfast)...etc...

Oh, and I'm reading Ray Bradbury's 'Dandelion Wine'...which would account for all the verbs...

I'll post some other time, ciao xx

http://ngm.nationalgeographic.com/2002/04/afghan-girl/index-text

I also found this, it's an article about the Afgan Girl from Nat Geo, quite interesting as the photographer found her years after, to see what became of her, though no mention of giving her any of the royalties they have gained from her face and eyes was mentioned...

Busy not Packing

I have been up tp a little crafting, firstly, it's crafting that I can stuff my face with, wooo, gingerbread cookies, with the dough left over from a birthday gift. They were iced with psychedelic colours, thanks to the gel colours I have, wooo!

I should have been tidyi

ng, and packing etc, but the dough needed to be used, you know...wouldn't want it to stink up the fridge...plus, I did some washing up before and after making them, so it kinda counted, riiiiight?!?

The photo makes it look like I live in the 1970s, there is somethign about that that I quite like, reminds me of a load of my mum's cookbooks, which ar

e brilliant, but the pictures look horrid, and there is that weird yellow tint to them...is that really the best that they could do back then? It's a wonder that anyone was into cooking at all back then, then...but yes, I like that they look pretty retro, ROFL!

Was paid today, this is actually a BAD thing, it means that I go out and I buy things...silly really...I shouldn't be allowed money...but, some of the things, I did need, like the dress that I'll never wear, the sandles that I'm wearing right now and the massively wide legged trousers...that I'm sure I'll wear at least once, stand on and trip up in! WOOO! I also went to John Lewis, also quite bad, though fun...

bought some more wool, pins & needles, felt and, and...and array of coloured threads...which change colour as you sew (jaw - to - floor stuf eh!). The important part is the felt though as, I made my first ever (since primary school) feltie!

YAY!

It's all this blogs fault! The kwoozy blog! Mainly for the effort and honesty...and generally because of the way she writes etc....

I made a zombie, he is called Marcus...for no reason other than he told me that's what his name was...can't do anything about it...

So there, now my toes are freezing and I don't know if I can be bothered packing, though, it is FREEZING in town, and RAINING, and tomorrow is about going where it is warm, SO, I should get on, but really...the effort!

Once Again

It has been an AGE since I last posted something here...tsk!

To be frank, I havn't even been that busy, and the new job is more suited to me, doesn't drain me, therefore, I really should have more up here...

sorry if this post doesn't flow, its just that I will be coming and going from it as I'm meant to be tidying as we're going away for a couple of days, and, it's always nicer to come back to a place that's like, PROPER clean...so, that's kinda what I'm up to.

I have a few paintings in finished mode, and one that I need to learn how to paint fleshy colours with...other than that it's done, need to frame something for a friend, that I said I'd give to her for her birthday LAST year...ooooops, yup, it's a bit of poor show...oh well... :s

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...OK, It is FINALLY framed, just need to add loopy bits for string, and wrap it...and say another sorry, and she can have it, a year too late...better late than never though, isn't it?...Back to tidying I suppose!

...Pfffft! I've stopped cleaning...cba! Plus reading blogs is sooo much more fun! You also get in the habit of going from blog to blog and reading for hours, and ending up with about 15 different tabs in one window...and filling the taskbar up with YET MORE tiny web icons to go back to...

...Today it's mainly Japanese craft type blogs, and the general japanesey theme..MY GODS I wouldn't mind living there for a good while!

Bored of writing now...ciao xx

New Project

I have started a new project, while also (slowly) completing the quilt I had started a good 6 years ago now...

this new one will probs take me around the same length of time, as its made up of 589467495867945867 hexagons which I'll crochet together...uhm, it'll take me years...

xx

NEW JOB!

I have started my new job, in fact, I had applied for a new job, and then they took me on!! YAY!

I just feel lucky to be there right now, and yes it has only been the first week, but OMG, I'm loving it there!

Uhm, in this role, I'm able to work with the group and I know that things I suggest will actually see the light, there are not so many rules, as it isn't a corporate setting...it's empowering for the villagers, and for the enablers, I'm thinking I'll like it here at Camphill!

Kendal Mint Cake

Tonight, I have worked out that ALL, not just a couple, of my problems are stress related.

This is not just because of work, and all the things that comprise the whole of one of my days, but because of everything that has lead up to today, this second, and the next. I carry A LOT of weight on my shoulders, and have an elephantine memory for things that I can relate to other moments in my daily life, and for things out of the norm.

It is strange, I have just mentioned that I have an elephantine memory, yet, horrible things happening to me I don't remember so well...like being pushed down the stairs when leaving chemistry with everyone which is, as Sho pointed out, probably why I have a feeling of nervousness and general uneasiness about anyone following me up or down the stairs...this was a horrible feeling I had, but could not fathom the reason for it. It wasn't until I was reminded that I relived the horrifying embarrassment, I did, however, feel some form of relief...it was like, I'm weird about many things, but for the stairs thing, I have a reason, yay!

I also can't remember the pain of breaking my arm, though am constantly worried that my hand will fall off if I carry heavy things, unless it is trays of plates etc, then, it is my back that seizes and the pain of sneezing at the wrong moment is imminent. Yes, be careful how you sneeze my pretties!

YES, anyway! I am stressed...my back hurts, no, aches. I am THE most moody person in the whole world, I feel like crap aaaalll of the time, until I leave work... then I remember I have to go back to work...and turn into that there mental shebitch again...

I have worked out that I am proper stressed, and now I can work on making myself, less...stressed, and more...caaaaalllllllmmm...

SIMPLE!

HOLIDAY

I have been on holiday and, should, have lots of updates and news...but, I don't, not really...

Have been bike riding, and being reminded of parts of my bum I never knew I had...darn saddle...

Have managed to do loads of like... money spending, but, as per, I'm not sure where it's all gone... oh well!! Uhm, planning on finishing some or the bird things soon... need to finish off the framed thing for someone... and sort out the Day of the Dead inspired bird thing for that too...

have worked out that armature is REALLY important to things with arms and legs and tails and stuff...whether I remember this next time I start something, I don't know...

Uhm, other than that...

NOTHING

oh...the end of Debenhams is on the horizon...

Ionagail xx